Moving to Chapel Hill.
Well, we did it. We left our little town of Clinton, Mississippi in the rearview mirror, hand-in-hand, with a Uhaul full of memories. I hadn’t realized it until we were 14-hours East again, but we had become something of small-townians, if you will. Life lived in a 3 mile radius, and perfectly content with only one grocery store. I walked to work, and Friday nights we listened to podcasts on our front porch before dinner. So when I drove through campus for the first time, looking for my new office and getting lost between medical buildings and “high rises” ... it felt a whole lot more like Times Square than home. And I cried.
I was supposed to be the happiest stepping into this longtime dream-finally-coming-true scenario, but C was gone for the first week at a wedding and I was just struggling to find my second form of identification amongst the boxes so I could fill out my HR paper work and start my new job so we could pay rent and have groceries and etc, etc, etc. And 25 apparently didn’t bring any sort of adult emotional stability when it came #oldforoldssake?! So there I was in the Target parking lot counting my tears (again). Letting a sad country song on a radio station I didn’t know affirm my mostly self-induced devastations.
But just like He does, in the most faithful of ways, Jesus sat with me there. Unafraid of the mess of my emotions. Reminding me tenderly, “I am what you need. I am the dream you really want, and I’m right here.” Because even getting something (or EVERYTHING) you prayed for and hoped for and wished for renders void in comparison to knowing Him. And if my soul didn’t have such amnesia, I could have lived out of that place of truth 774 miles ago. But holy grace, you know? And a deep breath full of new mercies because He’s right.
To no one’s surprise we fell in love quickly, only 3-weeks in and both concurring this is the best place we’ve ever lived. And the one grocery store life was sweet, but HI TRADER JOES AND WHOLE FOODS I LOVE YOU. So now here we are, with the better dream, the Jesus dream. Excited and expectant and on Holy Ground because this is where we were called. And we’re ready for Kingdom work. Amen, amen, amen.