3 things that have been refreshing my soul.
He keeps setting a table, and inviting me to come. I sit down and tuck my legs underneath me like I do at home. I’m not sure if I need to ask before I reach for the things He has set before me. “Everything I have is yours,” I hear Him say.
I meet Him in this place. Sometimes we have a lot to talk about and the conversation is easy. I leave feeling full and purposeful. There are other days though that it’s almost like I’m there sitting by myself. I can’t seem to hear Him. I get frustrated and discouraged because I don’t know how to make it feel like before. “You told me to come and so I’m here. But where are you? I feel like I’m calling over and over for you but I can’t find you. I can’t hear you.” I barely get the words out before a tear escapes down my cheek. “I didn’t think there would be days like this when you asked me to walk with you,” I whisper.
But He’s gracious even then. Because He’s told me what to do in these moments when I feel distant. When I’m so consumed with if I “feel” His presence, even though I know He’s right there. Because He’s always right there.
In different seasons my heart needs different reminders of His goodness. And lately I’ve run to 3 things that have been refreshing my soul back to a place of safety and contentment.
- Entrusted- 2 Timothy An in-depth study of the book of 2 Timothy and the life of Paul. I had this crazy weird bias against Christian women Bible studies. I know I’m the worst. I guess I just was afraid of it being fluffy and full of glitter and not “deep” enough. But I was wrong, and I’m eating up some Beth Moore teaching for the first time ever and kicking myself for not jumping on the bandwagon sooner. This study is theologically sound and Christ centered and no fluff. It’s just Jesus and Scripture and truth. Exactly what my heart needs.
- “Let it be Jesus” An album by Christy Nockles. It’s not even a new release, but I’ve been listening to her new podcast (Glorious in the Mundane) and so I of course started on a Christy Nockles kick. But it’s been so life giving. The lyrics are truth over truth over truth. And so I know I’m singing Scripture over my life when I sing her songs at the top of my lungs parked outside of our apartment.
- Creative projects The Lord gives us passion and talent for a reason. I think back on the times when my cup feels the most full…. after a dance rehearsal, leading worship for a church thirsty for Jesus, writing my heart out when my mouth doesn’t know how to speak the words. Doing what makes me feel alive. The creator of the universe made me in His image, therefore I was made to “create.” And when I do I feel alive and I feel nearest to Him.
One thing I know for sure: the Lord is good and constant. Our emotions are tidal waves that change with the wind. But He doesn’t. And so He can only ever be faithful. When you feel distant and lonely, don’t let your feelings tell you what is true. Run to the Word. Run to His truth. Run to Him.
And I pray all of this over you the way I pray for it over myself. In Jesus’ name. Amen amen amen!